Looking Good

Marc and I just arrived to find my dad sitting straight up at the computer and looking so much better than I imagined. My friend Jen told me to prepare for the worst so I was pleasantly surprised. True, he has lost a lot of weight and perhaps we can share jeans now (size 4/6) but he still looks like dad and is totally with it. We never had a more energized conversation - I guess the rittilin kicked in (it is used to give adults energy and let me tell you it works). We spoke about important things like all the crazy scams that happened at Macy's and other scams that shock us. He is still 100% Herbie.

Dad is walking with a very cool cane that he got from Orvis because his right foot has dropped - that means that it goes- toe to heel when he walks instead of the opposite normal heel to toe so he has to lift it so it lands flat. He just got off the phone with his pal Buddy and he said that the conversation was probably more uncomfortable for Buddy than for him. He can talk in bursts but too long of a conversation is draining for him and the last thing he wants to talk about is his health. He loves cards and is so touched by them. He feels much more comfortable after his brief hospital stay and ate an ice pop which he loves and so I had to have one to. Tomorrow hospice is coming because we fired mom as his full time nurse - she's now back on wife and friend duty. She looks sooooo much better (ever since I told her that if she doesn't eat she will get wrinkles that will never go away)- Do I know my mom or what? Mom is so happy that we are here and my dad feels guilty and thinks I should be home with my kids who are with my saviors Linda and Arthur aka Gaga and Popop. Linda, my mother in law and talented therapist, told me that it is OK to be sad, feel it and to let it out so I feel that you should be able to as well. If you want to write whatever you want it's your call who am I to impose happiness 24/7? Vermont is divine - the trees are starting to change and the sun is breaking through the clouds - the view from my dad's bed which is were I am writing from is perfection! I am going to try and post every day because Steve said that there are a lot of people reading this and I can't keep you hanging. Dad is happy with the decision he has made. He said most people don't know where they are going but he does and feels in control. xxoo Suze