Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Donations
NORRIS COTTON CANCER CENTER
Dartmouth Medical School
One Medical Center Drive,
Lebanon, NH 03756
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Quechee Memorial / Celebration
The location is:
206 Remember Baker Lane,
Quechee VT,
05059
Looking forward to meeting you. XO Suze
Friday, September 25, 2009
Stephen's Eulogy
Leslie's Eulogy
Growing up as Herb Yalof’s daughter was a treat. When the other kids on the block were getting the latest and greatest toys, I always got the latest in fashion. When I was six years old the hot new item was a paper dress. My father brought one home for me on a Friday night and I put it on the next morning. It was a day we were headed to the zoo. I was so proud of my new paper dress, until we got to the petting zoo area. There, while I was feeding the chickens, a goat came up and started eating my dress. My knee length paper dress soon became a mini-skirt and threatened to become even less than that. My dad merely turned to me and said, well now you really have the latest fashion.
Through out much of our childhood, on Sunday mornings, Dad would wake up and ask us, who isn’t doing something today? There was always one of us who had no plans. At which point, he would say, O.K. you and I are going out, you have 30 seconds to decide where you want to go and then I am picking (his pick would have been foxwoods, had it been around at the time.) I once asked to go to a restaurant for lunch which was in Amish Country, 2 and 1/2 hours away. Without blinking an eye he got in the car and away we went. I am still amazed that my father would drive so far just to have lunch at a place I requested. But that was my dad. He would do anything for anyone.
His generosity of spirit went far beyond his own family. One story among many typifies my dad’s generosity. Macy’s had an executive elevator that was run by an elevator operator named Benny. At least once a month, Benny would admire my father’s tie. He would say to my dad Mr. Yalof, I really love the tie you are wearing. Without hesitation, my dad always said, Benny, since you like it so much, I want you to have it. And with that he pulled off his brand new tie and handed it over.
Not only did he enjoy doing for others, he also made sure we always felt special about what we did for him. Each father’s day, my dad had a tradition of wearing to breakfast all the gifts we had given him. Once, when we were all already grown, I with two young kids of my own, we celebrated father’s day in Vermont. I think Suze gave my dad cotton pajama’s which he loved, Stephen gave him a tie, my kids gave him a gator hat and I had given him a wallet. Imagine the site when he came down in a tie, a gator hat and a wallet tucked in his new pajamas. And he would wear it the whole day, letting us know that what we chose for him was just perfect.
I would be remiss without acknowledging what a remarkable grandfather he was. A few years ago, when my kids were in need of a little extra TLC, on several occasions, my dad awoke early on a Sunday morning to make the drive down from Vermont to Larchmont in time for breakfast, just to make his special chocolate chip pancakes. These pancakes became so legendary and important that three weeks ago, when we were all together and he was really weak and sick, he got out of bed to make sure his seven youngest grandchildren got their pancakes. He wanted to show them he was o.k. On our way home that weekend, Ross even said to me, Grandpa is fine, he made us our pancakes.
And that is exactly what my dad wanted until the end, to make sure we knew he was fine. He wanted to take care of us, not for us to take care of him. This past weekend, we had a running joke that despite the fact that my dad was only semi-conscious, he was still able to throw me out of the room every time I offered to help him. He didn’t want us to help him, he was the strong one, our leader and the boss. (Although my Mom did give him a run for the money these past few weeks, showing that she is stronger than anyone) Suze, Stevie, my Mom and I all agreed that the remarkable swiftness with which he left this world was by his own design and on his own terms. He took care of us until the end, making sure that we would not suffer for a long time worrying about or taking care of him.
My father was a remarkable man. He was smart, handsome, and incredibly funny. A few weeks ago, when he was in the hospital, which he hated, he told me that time stood still. He would look at the clock at 1:00 and then three hours later it was 1:03. I wish I could do his sense of humor more justice – I assure you, he had us laughing every day of our life.
I am sorry that my father is gone so soon, but I am grateful that Lauren, Danny, Ross and I as well as my brother and sister, brother in law and sister in law, nieces, nephews and cousins had the benefit of his teachings. He showed us by action, and not by words, how to be kind, hard working, thoughtful and generous. He taught us good manners and the importance of fine things – which, by the way, he could find just as easily at Asprey and Paul Stuart as he could at Walmart. I will miss my dad terribly but I take comfort in knowing that because of his profound influence on everyone that he touched, he will live on forever. Everyone thinks they have a great father, and I am no exception. He really was the best father I could ever ever wish for.
Noonie's Eulogy
Dear Grandpa,
You were only 51 years old when I was born. The other day, Mom told me the that when I was a baby, you would put me in a snuggly and take me out for walks in New York and people would look at you like you were my father and I was your little girl, and although we are more than one generation apart, you have always treated me like your daughter. Twenty-one years later, I finally figured out that when you said “help your mother with the dishes” you meant grandma, and when it was “listen to your mother”—well, that was really mom.
There have been several moments in my life when I’ve realized that no one in the world is like you. Your overwhelming generosity, honesty, and love for family was so inspiring and clear to me, Danny, Ross, Brookie, Jon, Austin, Tyler, and even Coopie. you rarely had to give us life lessons, because we all just hoped we could be as good as our Grandpa Herbie—I still do, and always will.
There were, of course, certain lessons that I did need to be taught. Among the many times you took on a role that exceeded far beyond that of a typical grandfather was our trip to look at Middlebury College, just the two of us. Toward the end of our tour, I skillfully guided you toward the bookstore, where I “happened” to come across a sweatshirt that I was really going to “need” for the next two cold Vermont summer nights. Seeing as it was the polite—and strategic—thing to do, I offered to buy the sweatshirt for myself. To my surprise, you took me up on the “kind” offer. I don’t believe I ever tried to hustle you, or anyone for that matter, again.
As much as you were paternal, you had your grandfather ways too, and you have always made me feel like the luckiest granddaughter in the world. You taught me how to play marbles (or as Tyler calls them, “Normals”) when I discovered your collection in the guest house, and when I told you I wanted to go back in time to a 1950s malt shop, you made me an egg cream. For my 21st birthday card, you counted the minutes that I had been alive just to let me know how very important I was to you and have been for every single one of those minutes. As I’m sure everyone knows, breakfast was your specialty, and on any given visit we were guaranteed our choice of of bagels, lox eggs and onions, a jelly omelet, AND of course, chocolate chip pancakes.
As everyone has and will mention, it was your unparalleled generosity that has had an impact on everyone you have come across, and we were no exception. Both mine and Danny’s ever expanding collection of “vintage” cashmere sweaters is a testament to this, as you would often literally give me the sweater off your back. Whenever you caught me eying a sweater, it was only a matter of seconds before you took it off and handed it right over. You must have done this quite often, because it recently occurred to me that every one of my seven roommates is now sleeping in one of your sweaters.
I don’t even think that you knew how generous you were. The summers that I was working at camp, I would spend weekends with you and grandma, arriving every Friday dirty laundry in hand. But every time I left you would hand over a gas-money “handshake,” which made me feel like I was doing you a favor by visiting, even though it was I who felt lucky to be spending time with you.
In an effort to comfort me, Grandma told me yesterday that you’re not really gone, because there is so much of you in me—and in my brothers and cousins, I know she is right. When I see Danny’s independence and work ethic, Ross’s warmth and love for family, Brookie’s incredibly mature values, Jon’s sense of humor and famous Yalof eyes, Austin’s brains, Tyler’s smile, and Coopie’s constant happiness, I know that I can always find a little bit of you in them whenever I need my grandpa again.
Love,
Lauren
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Danny's Eulogy
My grandpa is the best guy in the world.
He is the reason I stand up straight, he is the reason I hold the door open for ladies, and he is the reason I have a strong handshake. (I should mention that all of this is, of course, in thanks to my grandma as well.) He is the reason I always have tissues in my left pocket, though I think he preferred a handkerchief himself. He is the reason I’m not afraid to strike up conversation with strangers, and the reason I’m enthusiastic about trying new things. He’s the reason I know when and how to look presentable, and when to dig my hands into the dirt. He’s the reason I know how to crack a lobster shell, and how to reel in a tuna 30 miles out to sea. He is the reason I know what a 4-pound hamburger tastes like, and the reason that I know what actually happens at auctions. He bought a toaster for my house to use when he visited, because he did not like the way ours worked—yes, he visited that often, and yes, we have 2 toasters; but that’s not all: thanks to him we have a waffle iron and a single-cup coffee maker too!—he always was at the front edge of technology, especially when it came to new modes of playing solitaire. He’s the reason I’m not in gambling debt… and the reason I was in it to begin with. He is the reason I know what a breath of fresh Vermont air tastes like, and the reason I know what a handful of fresh Vermont snow tastes like. He makes me feel like a computer genius with his frequent phone calls full of questions about ipods; I never had the heart to tell him that any teenage boy can do what I do these days.
He is the reason I go out of my way to see my friends perform in plays and concerts, and he is the reason I look forward to being with my family. It was he who yelled at James Reddicliffe to pass me the basketball, and it was he who cheered for me when I almost made that tackle in peewee football.
He’s the reason I never lose sight of what’s important to me, and the reason I’m always looking for what matters to me. He’s the reason I smile so often and the reason I laugh when others don’t. He is the reason I make the most of every day.
He always knew how to make others happy, and he took every opportunity to do so, and it is because of my grandpa that I do the same.
-Herb's grandson Danny
Suze's Eulogy--more to come
My Eulogy:
I was looking for the right things to say about my Dad that would best capture his essence. I think one of my sons came pretty close when describing his favorite things about grandpa--“his pancakes and his attitude”.
The reality is that at his core my Dad was quite simply “the nicest man on the planet”. He was a good man…a great man…a gentle man…and a gentleman. His kindness, generosity, class and love for his family were unrivaled. Dad pretty much taught me everything I know.
My top 5 favorite rules:
1. Don’t wait around for things to happen but make it happen.
2. Make life easy and don’t get caught up in the pettiness
3. Have fun and be present.
4. be appreciative and never take anything for granted.
5. And Dad’s golden rule - Never confuse who you are with what you do. I live by this.
He achieved great work success, but that is never how he measured his achievement. It was all about what he could do to take care of those around him. He was selfless in his desire to make sure that everyone was happy and no one lacked. He was the consummate host and it wasn’t a chore for him—it was a passion. He took my friends in as if they were part of the family. A number of them are here today, not to comfort and support us, but for him and the impact, however small, that he had on their life. This is the ultimate tribute. Even in his last days, my Dad was focused on others and not himself. He found this great cane at Orvis and everyone at the hospital was complimenting him on it. Just this past Saturday, he asked Marc to track down and purchase five of them so he could go hand them out to those that wanted them. That was my Dad! Oh and let me know if you want one.
Most importantly, all of these amazing qualities enabled him to be an incredible father to me, Leslie and Stephen, an amazing husband, and the BEST grandfather. He loved our boys and even though they were #’s 6, 7, and 8, he treated them like #1, #1 and #1. We can only hope that some of these qualities make their way to our kids, and the goodness of Herb will live on in the next generation.
When Marc explained to Austin what was going to happen today, Austin replied that certain civilizations bury people with their favorite things and asked whether we should bury grandpa with a pound of tongue. I hope they serve pastrami, caviar and 18 year old Macallan and that he is getting red in the face laughing his head off with his brothers Phil and Harvey.
I always felt that I could tell my father anything and everything and I did. So this week, when it was time to say goodbye, there was nothing more to say. He knew how I felt and told me that.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Memorial Service NYC
Herb Yalof 3/18/37 to 9/21/09
Message From Steve
It is beautiful here and the leaves are starting to change.
Dad's condition continues to worsen. As Suzy and Mom shared with you all he has elected to take the hospice route and in so doing the sole protocol is comfort. There are no IV's. No forced feedings. Nothing that is designed to prolong life. simply medicine to reduce the pain, the occasional sip of water when he can hold it down and hand holdings, kisses and words of comfort from all of us.
The hospice nurse assured us that he is in a comfortable place and that he is in a dream state organizing in his mind his transition. He recognizes us when we sit with him but he has slowly become less aware and more at dream. His body is beginning to shut down and we feel that he is enjoying his last hours with us.
He is so amazingly brave. He chose this course of action and like everything else that he has done in his life he has taken complete control of this situation. He lived his own way and by his own principals. Principals that he has instilled in each of us and will live through us as his legacy I'm in awe of his bravery but so sad that he he has to go soon.
Steve
Hanging with Herb
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Takeherbie
This is so crazy - how can this happen so quickly we asked Amy. She gave us a long explanation that made sense about the tumor putting to much pressure making it difficult for his kidneys and liver to function.
Right now he is resting on his bed and according to Amy, going through 5 stages of something that resembles REM. He is working things out in his mind and enjoying listening to us pretend that we will all be fine after he passes. She told us that we should hang out in his room and talk about our lives as they go on and if he makes a gesture with his face or hands to just exit - Well Leslie was the first one to be officially gestured out of his room. We all so appreciate that you understand that we need to have quite family time and how precious these last days are to us. We will keep you posted as the story unfolds . Love to you all. Suze
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Hospice
Friday, September 18, 2009
From Ina
Herbie had a procedure yesterday which kept him in the hospital overnight where he slept and got some fluids. Today he feels so much better. I don't know how long it will last, but I'll take whatever we can get. Suze and Marc are here which brings sunshine into the house, and Herbie is relishing in spending time with them.
Tonight we lit the candles and had a blind matzoh ball taste test pitting mine against Susan Israel's. I'm not going to say which one won, but if you e-mail me, I'll be sure you get her recipe. We had a "sweet" new year - with apples, honey, wine and Flowers from our good friends the Drubels, and a chocolate angel cake from Miriam and Steve Ruzow, which brought a delicious touch of New York to our table. It also brought a brown stain to my white slacks, which of course Herbie noticed immediately. Dang!
Tomorrow, hospice is coming and I guess I'm going to be fired from some of my nursing responsibilities. I can live with that.
Thank you all so much for understanding how hard these past three weeks have been for us and for not calling as I requested. I'm in awe of how very many friends we have, but he still needs to rest. I've been reading your emails to him and he's enjoying listening to them. Please keep sending them to me at inayal@yahoo.com or posting them on the blog, if you can figure it out.
A very happy and healthy New Year to you all, with
much love Ina
Looking Good
Dad is walking with a very cool cane that he got from Orvis because his right foot has dropped - that means that it goes- toe to heel when he walks instead of the opposite normal heel to toe so he has to lift it so it lands flat. He just got off the phone with his pal Buddy and he said that the conversation was probably more uncomfortable for Buddy than for him. He can talk in bursts but too long of a conversation is draining for him and the last thing he wants to talk about is his health. He loves cards and is so touched by them. He feels much more comfortable after his brief hospital stay and ate an ice pop which he loves and so I had to have one to. Tomorrow hospice is coming because we fired mom as his full time nurse - she's now back on wife and friend duty. She looks sooooo much better (ever since I told her that if she doesn't eat she will get wrinkles that will never go away)- Do I know my mom or what? Mom is so happy that we are here and my dad feels guilty and thinks I should be home with my kids who are with my saviors Linda and Arthur aka Gaga and Popop. Linda, my mother in law and talented therapist, told me that it is OK to be sad, feel it and to let it out so I feel that you should be able to as well. If you want to write whatever you want it's your call who am I to impose happiness 24/7? Vermont is divine - the trees are starting to change and the sun is breaking through the clouds - the view from my dad's bed which is were I am writing from is perfection! I am going to try and post every day because Steve said that there are a lot of people reading this and I can't keep you hanging. Dad is happy with the decision he has made. He said most people don't know where they are going but he does and feels in control. xxoo Suze
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Father Knows Best
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Greetings from Vermont
Dad and I are sitting down stairs anxiously awaiting the start of the Gator Game. He is up and about and was very pleased to learn his cancer has not spread.
Both Mom and Dad are remarkable. They are upbeat and hard working. I am in awe of them.
From the front line I can report that the cards, e-mails and posts are very meaningful to both of them. Keep 'em coming.
Lets all enjoy this day.
and go gators!
Love,
Leslie
Friday, September 11, 2009
Foxwoods and Lugars
Sports analogy clarified . . . . .
Your prayers worked!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Update by Suze
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Monday, September 7, 2009
Letter from Leslie
This week will bring some important news. At the end of the week Dad will have some tests that will help doctors advise him on the best course of treatment. As you can imagine, we are all hoping for only good news
Those of you who can figure out how to get on the blog, we love your posts, and for those of you who can't, we get it. If you would rather e-mail her directly you can reach her at inayal@yahoo.com
Love,
Leslie
Saturday, September 5, 2009
An Even Better Day
Friday, September 4, 2009
Small steps just got BIGGER - by Ina
Thanks for keeping them upbeat and positive.
We feel so lucky to have Suze and her family here and we all hang out on Herbie's bed. Reminds me of college days.
Weather wise, this has been the best weekend of the entire summer.
Much love,
Ina
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Ina's First Post
And speaking of meaning, I can't even tell you how meaningful the 35 calls an hour and 275 emails a day have been to both of us. I also appreciate so much your understanding that at this point in time I can't talk to each of you. Here is the scoop, Wednesday night a week ago we were enjoying dinner with our dear friends from New Jersey. At 11:00 the same night we were in the hospital. By Friday morning we had a confirmed diagnosis of pancreatic cancer. It has yet to be staged and we don't know what the treatment course will be yet for sure. We're going for a laparoscopy a week from tomorrow and will know better at that point.
Herbie is a real trouper and is convinced that this originated from a knish he ate in Brooklyn when he was fourteen years old. Thank God he hasn't lost his sense of humor but I continue to search for mine.
The hospital was nothing short of spectacular and I thank God for our dearest friend, Mark Israel, who is head of the world class Cancer Center at Dartmouth and has been on the phone with me five times a day, while on vacation. He has made sure we have only the best of everything including the most outstanding physicians, which is all we can ask for. We're very comforted by having him on our team.
I was so lucky that Stephen and his awsome wife, Liora ran up here within hours and never left my side for four days. I couldn't have handled it without them and their warmth. Steve has been my rock through this whole thing and is teaming up with my incredible son in law Marc to make sure that we have had second opinions from no less than the head of the National Cancer Institute, Stephen Rosenberg, who is a dear friend of Arthur and Linda Schwartz. Those two boys have lifted a huge weight from my shoulders and have let me concentrate on looking "cool" and relaxed for Herbie.
Leslie has been my inspiration because of her strength and has taught me the mantra "hour by hour" as the way to handle a difficult situation. I am in awe of her psychic abilities; she manages to call just when I need to talk to her. I still can't figure out how she knows. She has also fixed me up with house keepers and shrinks - both very necessary at this point in time. I adore that child.
What can i say about Suze that I have not already said a million times? She makes us laugh, and who doesn't need that at this time? Oh, and she. is currently standing over my shoulder with a gun saying "write it, Mom, so that your friends know how you are..." She has brought the "three Texans" (austin, tyler and cooper) with her, plus, as only Suze can do, a girl she met on the street last week. She did a makeover on this wonderful stranger on the Today show and then asked her: How would you like to come to Vermont with me next week? So now Bree is here, this beautiful Australian girl who all three boys have a crush on and we are thrilled to have the extra set of hands. She continues to tell us she is going for "world domination" and although I have no idea what that means, I'm very happy she's saying it from here.
Marc , who is on his way as I write this, has taken this situation on his own shoulders and proceeded in ways I could never have fathomed. He's put his business acumen to something as amorphous as a disease. How he does it, I don't know. I only know I'm glad he does. As with Liora, I feel so lucky to have him in our family and I can't wait to see him later this afternoon.
So many of you have asked how you can help me. The best way, for now, is to understand why I"m not calling you back and use this blog for the updates that I wish I could give each of you in person. For now, no surprise visits, please.
And thank you so much Deb, for setting this blog up and for your post, that says it all.
I love you all. But you knew that.
Ina
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Herb is Home
Good News!
He passed the walking and eating test and I is so excited to spend a week with him in Vt. He is, however, going to have to go back to the hospital next week for a procedure. We will keep you updated as details emerge.
He is in great spirits and happy to come home to his three adorable grandchildren. We all can't wait.
With each confirmation Dad is confirming to us that while he may not be at his best physically he is mentally at the top of his game
gotta go clean up my room
Suze
Suze’s friend Deb Copaken has graciously set up a blog for us. This is the new go-to place to update everyone on how Herb is doing. We are so happy to hear from all of you and the perfect day would include a great conversation and time to return each call. But as you can imagine, at least in the beginning, energy is reserved for making decisions and digesting our newest task. And, especially for Ina, there is so little time to acknowledge everyone’s kind thoughts. Indeed, one of the best gifts you can provide us is understanding that an unreturned note or phone call means we feel comfortable enough for you to know we can be ourselves and allocate our strength as needed.
So, in the meantime, we encourage you to check in at http://theherbreport.blogspot.com Stephen, Suze, Ina and I will each report. And hopefully, for Herb, this is little more than a very short blip in a very long life.
Now the very good news. Dad is alert and cracking jokes. He is hopeful to leave the hospital by the end of the week. He has advised all of us to invest in a linen company, as he has observed that the orderlies seem to spend an inordinate amount of time changing sheets.